Saturday, October 20, 2007

Your mail's not safe in this town.

This week The Lady of Shalott finally got hung up on my wall. What? I’ve only been living in St. John’s for over a year, we’re still trying to get organized.

As she sits there quietly above my desk, I realize it’s the first thing I’ve hung on my bedroom walls. To hang something up means permanence. A plan to stay. My own Mom never hung a single picture or painting up in the whole house until my brother came home for a visit in July and was like WTF where are my baby photos?

I came home from the North in August to a house laden with graduation photos, Sarah/Darryl montages and pretty much any piece of artwork my brother or I ever did that was framed. We get it, Mom. You love us.

I don’t plan on ever living in St. John’s permanently. Well, unless I get some ridiculously awesome job which doesn’t happen EVER (read: Axel Meisen moves to Alberta for a better job, THE IRONY IS NOT LOST ON ME, FRIENDS).

But, it occurred to me that I treat my new home as a hotel. A lot of my stuff is still in giant Rubbermaid containers from the move a year+ ago. It’s sad.

Unfortunately I don’t have the gumption to change it. I don’t want this to be my home. I don’t like anything about this home or this city. Man, how I loathe this city!

What to do, what to do. . .

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